So lately my computer has been acting up
& I have soooo many thing I want to share with you all that
it's super frustrating that it wasn't working right all weekend!
I promise to update you all with things soon though! :]
I've got a bunch of recipes, updates, & stories I've been wanting to share!
I alwayssss get like this when the shows get closer!
I start to second guess what I've been doing...
Am I eating right?
Am I eating enough?
Am I eating too much?
Am I working out enough?
Am I working out too much?
Will I look good on stage?
Am I doing enough cardio?
Should I be doing 2-a-days?
Should I even do the show!?
These negative thoughts have all crossed my mind at one point.
Today was one of those days where I was just doubting myself.
I usually take Sunday's as my rest day, but it was SO beautiful outside
that my mom and I decided to meet a friend to take a walk outside;
It was just what I needed!
a lot of talking; with a side of walking ;]
After having a good heart to heart with mama-powercakes
I reminded myself to look in the mirror
and see what I've accomplished within the last year.
This helps me remember why I'm doing these competitions.
They are a GOAL of mine that I work towards.
They give me motivation.
I've always been a competitive person,
and most of the time I'm competitive with myself
when it comes to trying new exercises & working hard.
After I finally bring myself back to reality
and get rid of the negative thoughts;
I feel so much better and I'm looking so forward to the experience!
It really is such an adrenaline rush to get out there on stage.
I give major props to anyone who competes!
It's not easy getting up in front of 1,000 people in an inch or two of fabric; trust me.
But once you take one step out onto the stage
(and pray to God that you don't trip in your heels that are way too high & you totally pretend you can walk in)
It really is the best feeling to be able to show off your hard work!
I'm re-using a picture that I used to be afraid to post
because I didn't want to come off looking like a "meat head"
or whichever word comes to mind;
but I am proud of where I am
& I will be proud of where I will be in 2 weeks!
What are YOU proud of today!?