hello everyone! First I just wanted to say thank you so much for all of your support over the last couple of months with big changes happening.
I was a bit MIA on blogging just to focus on some other things at that time. For those who may have been following along on Social Media – I was living in San Diego, CA since January working at the amazing Fitness Quest 10.
I made the decision months before I moved that I didn’t want to pass up this opportunity to work at one of the top 10 Gym’s in the Country under my Mentor in this industry, Todd Durkin.
I asked myself — would I regret not going to Cali looking back years from now? My answer was yes so with the support of my fiance, clients, friends, & family I made the jump across the country.
I absolutely loved the time I had at FQ10 — learning SO much as a trainer, learning from Todd and his amazing energy daily, learning from the other talented trainers, getting to know new clients and their stories, &… enjoying that San Diego weather.
During these months though…my heart felt that it was somewhere else and dang, did I struggle with this. My heart felt like it was back in the East closer to my family, fiance, friends, & my soon to be niece/nephew (my brother and his wife are expecting their first baby!!!).
The plan was for Corey to look for jobs in SD but every time we’d look — I would get a big pit in my stomach not feeling that Cali was home for us. I battled my heart with my mind daily… continuing to suppress my heart’s feelings and continue thinking “no … you made this decision & you have to make this work.”
Well after months of this inward conversation… I had a break down.
Total melt down.
Called my mom & said to her — my heart is back East.
But… what would people think of me? Would Todd be upset with me? Would my clients be upset? Would people think I didn’t try hard enough? All of these thoughts about OTHERS circled my brain for days and days as I let anxiety and stress eat away at me.
I finally sat down and talked it and was being told over and over to listen to my heart and make myself happy – not to worry about what other people think.
So much easier said than done right?
But it’s true — deep down we know the answer it’s just a matter of having the courage to accept it.
I took weeks to find clarity — taking walks every day and night to clear my head, attending yoga classes to center in, & took some time just to be with me and write down what I truly want.
For me — being an entrepreneur and a trainer is what lights me up every single day. Another thing that lights me up? Being close to my family, friends, & fiance.
It was time to accept that there was NOTHING wrong with doing what makes me happy. There was nothing wrong with wanting to move back East & there is nothing wrong with trying something, giving it 100%, & finding that it’s maybe not where I’m supposed to be forever.
For me to just accept that it’s OK and it’s OK to let things change was a huge turning point for me.
Often I do things to make others happy and I think we all can agree that we’ve done that for others. This was a huge lesson for me to learn to listen to my heart & my gut — and even when you have to sit down with the person you look up to most in your Industry and tell them that your heart is just not here — you WILL be ok especially because you’re surrounded by people that lift you up and want what’s best for you.
When faced with a challenge you learn more about yourself than you ever thought possible… and with these 5 months I did just that.
I not only learned from the best and got to experience what it’s like to be in an AMAZING facility full of so much energy & positivity — but I also got to experience myself and what truly makes me happy.
I had a lot of amazing experiences in California such as my first powerlifting meet with my FQ10 fam…
My first In-n-Out experience…oh my gosh so good.
Watching clients make JAW DROPPING progress not only physically but mentally….
If you follow my snapchat (@POWERCAKES) you may recognize my girl DEB! She is a powerhouse and I loved every single session with her.
Anddd check out my girl Julie’s confidence! She rocks and made my cheeks hurt from laughing so much during our sessions…
I got to train daily with my girl Bailee who I knew before going out to California but we became so close and I thank her for so much support while I was there…
Everyone in my life and at FQ10 has been so supportive and I can’t thank them enough for that. The clients, trainers, friends of Fitness Quest, Julie, & Todd are all amazing, inspiring, & have had a huge #IMPACT on my life — thank you all.
These months have been emotionally tough for me but wow, having support from my California family is something that I am so appreciative of through all of this.
So, with that being said, I am back to Rhode Island where Corey is still working and we have our little home (apartment) here. I’m back with my soccer girls and we’ve already got summer conditioning kicked off with sessions! I am so thankful to have their support to come back to and I am feeling so at “home” again.
And did I mention we’re less than 1.5 months out from our WEDDING DAY!! (July 3rd, 2016!)
I will take everything I learned over the last few months emotionally & as a Trainer and make you all & everyone in California proud.
Although 6 months ago I didn’t know this is how it would go — everything happens for a reason and if this can help someone maybe listen to their hearts a little bit more and tap into what truly makes them happy then I hope it does just that.
Continue to always be true to yourself and your heart will lead you where you’re meant to be.
Be true to you,